random thoughts

I always wanted to be a good writer. Every time I write my thoughts down something just doesn't feel right. I become uncomfortable.Sometimes, I stop writing altogether. I used to keep a diary but then I stopped. I didn't like how and what I wrote. But writing helped. It relieved me of my stress and in a way, it made me practice writing.

I realized that I'm drawn to drama. Maybe I'm addicted to sadness. I think I like crying because even if a normal person wouldn't normally cry, I would. I remember that whenever I see someone cry, I'd cry as well, especially if I understood their situation. Did I want attention? Was it empathy or was it because I was a drama queen? That I don't really know.

When I was second year high school, I was in the piano room with a classmate talking about my plans in life. I had it all figured out.
1. I had to have a best friend for life.
2. I had to have a husband.
3. I had to finish college.
4. I had to have a great job to have lots of money.

But people change.