On Many Things

First off... Yesterday, Sunday, Mother's day, my uncle's brother and his family invited us to go with them to Simala, where there's this famous shrine for the Virgin Mary. We went, and it was a long trip. It was lovely, going there. I got to see the coast, nice view, and it was sunny too. But when we got there, it just started raining. It's annoying. There shouldn't be rain during summer!

So well, why did I go with them to the shrine? One, because I had nothing to do and I've never been there before and I just wanted to check it out. Besides, they brought a mercedez benz van with them, so why not. It was very spacious inside, no transpo hassle to worry about.

So when we got there, it rained. It wasn't as beautiful as I expected. And I didn't like the people, because when we were forming a line to get to the statue of the Virgin Mary, some old women were complaining and arguing and stuff. Sigh, get over it, you're supposed to be inside "holy" grounds. And i was partly annoyed with the security guard who tossed me a sarong because i was "wearing shorts" (i wasn't wearing shorts, i was wearing short pedals, there's a difference). I just stared at him in disbelief. But on further thought, I definitely wouldn't mind covering my head with an orange bandana if I get to go inside a Hindu temple. So I just shrugged that off.

But still, I do feel really distant to my religion right now. I mean, duh, what's with touching Virgin Mary's statue got to do with getting your wishes granted?? Or dipping your fingers in holy water found inside churches or chapels.

Well, I'll just shrug that off too because I'm thinking, hell, even the Hindus bathe in the Ganges... (which is quite polluted too). But anyways, I think I'll have to agree with Sidhartha Gautama about learning to stop being dependent on gods, or any deity, and start working by yourself. Because enlightenment is just within yourself, it's waiting to be discovered. Well, I don't know about the part, but I certainly believe that one should learn to be independent, and stop relying on God for just about everything. Get your ass to work. Stop complaining, stop asking and then blaming God if he didn't grant your wish. You can hope all you want, just get your butt off that couch and start working!

So when we got home I slept from 4pm to 9pm. And had a really looong dream. About Van de Graaff generators that beat like the heart whenever two people who love each other kiss in front of it. And about lots of people dying. And also about a ghost who I'm supposed to know who kept letting me see her. Etc...

So today is my first day as a real trainee at NTW.