Friends

"Friends are people who leave you when you have problems because they know you're smart enough to solve it on your own and that you are just being lazy or blinded by the presumption that a particular situation is difficult."

-Grace Marie, when asked to define what are friends

Although I say that a lot, I secretly wish that I have a friend who will not leave me...but it's not a secret anymore because I just posted it. Hahaha! (crazy laughter)

My fault

We had a test yesterday and I believe that I failed the test. It definitely is my fault.I completely don't understand moment of inertia and I screwed up the elastic collision calculations. Now, we'll be having oscillations. Can't it get any worse?

I even didn't study for Korean yesterday. To top that, I missed two hours of Japanese yesterday. All my efforts to catch up were completely useless. But I was a bit happy because I got the four volumes of Vampire Knight that I ordered. It was really unexpected. I ordered 3 and 4 the day before but it arrived the next day with 1 and 2. I really love this manga along with Fairy Tail. It's really a great escape from reality. The only negative effect there is to it is that it runs for so long that I get tempted to finish it and then procrastinate.

Well, going back to failing. I think I'll have to study more and minimize anime and manga. I'm almost getting to the point of becoming a full-fledged otaku. If otakus would rather spend their money on buying doujins, manga, ero-games, etc. than eat, I would rather read and enjoy myself in manga and anime than study . I know it definitely is bad.

But I will try my best. Gambarimasu! Aja!

P.S I really wonder if I really could do it. ('_')

My obssession

My old/new obssession

So, I have a test this Thursday. But I can't help but procrastinate. I have about 10 anime episodes just waiting to be watched. Every time I check this site with torrents it always gets updated and adds to my list.

Sherwin is starting to hate anime because he considers this as competition (which is true). Most of the time I excuse myself just to watch anime. He claims that I don't give him enough time. But anime i s so hard to give up.

I guess one of the reasons why I like Japan is because of anime. Right now, I've spent approximately a hundred bucks on books on how to speak Japanese and on manga (my new obssession). If my mom finds out about my extravagant shopping, I think I'd be banned from the internet or worse I can never watch anime. shikushiku (in english - huhuhuhu).

Right now, the animes that I'm watching are about to end. Clannad, Kimikiss Pure Rouge, H20 have ended. True Tears, Shigofumi, Spice and Wolf and Shakugan no Shana 2 will soon end. But it's not so bad because it'll be replaced by good ones like Special A, Itazura na kiss, Vampire Knight(this one I can't miss).

Okay, so I guess I'll talk about True Tears a bit coz this series fascinates me. It is a love story and a harem-drama anime. It's popular in Japan . The art , soundtrack and storyline are all A+
. Anyways , the main argument is about what bonds are stronger:bonds with those you've known all your life or bonds with those people who you've just met but change you. And also one of the main characters is searching for the right moment when she can shed for someone her true tears.

Now, I'm exhausted. Tsukareta

Okay...So, I Don't Love You Anymore. Deal with It.

It's not you, It's me. I do not love you anymore. Why is that so hard to understand? I admit, I DID love you...Like, really loved you. I would even die for you. However, circumstances change and I guess you and I are not the same persons we were before. You have your own life, I have mine. I have my priorities, You have yours. I am sorry if things didn't work out the way they were supposed to. I am sorry I ended everything before the finals are over. I really didn't intend to end it before finals but you made me. Then again, I am glad that I did because you're reaction made me realize how selfish you are.

"I dnu what I did to deserve such punishment. If you cared even just a little bit for me, you won't break up with me before final exams. You could've waited. It just means you really hate me and this is the best revenge you've pulled out."

See? All you care about is if YOU could study for the finals. Well, the hell I care if you can or can't. I don't love you anymore. Deal with it.

F*ck*ng *ssH*le

Me: U'll probably get over me like in 6 months if ever we break up huh.
Him: No...
Me: Oh yes u will...
Him: No... How sure are u?
Me: Coz ur not telling me anything, like when u'll get over me. So I guess I'll just assume u will in 6 months.
***silence***
Me: UR NOT TELLING ME ANYTHING. u got no reactions.

(I got mad...coz all i wanted him to tell me is that he'll never get over me, but he's so stupid he didn't think of that at all)

After 30 minutes

Me: Yeah right, u really will get over me won't you???
Him: No I won't. I mean, close to never...
Me: WHat??? You mean, it's not never?! There's a chance you will get over me and love someone else?
Him: Yeah, of course. But I'm 99% sure that I won't get over you. But still there are other possibilities. And we'll never know what happens.
Me: WHAT?!?! So ur telling me that ur not sure that ur going to love me forever?!
Him: Yeah because ur not sure.
Me: Wtf do you mean I'm not sure!?!?
Him: Judging by the way to act. Ur not sure about me either.
Me: You're the one who's not sure!
Him: I'm sure.
Me: But you said ur 99% sure... that's not sure. In order to be sure you need 100%.
Him: I'm not sure because ur not sure.
Me: So you're really not sure at all.
Him: I AM sure. you're the one who isn't. You're always talking about how cute other guys are etc...
Me: Oh yeah right. Did you ever hear me say anything like I'm going to marry someone else aside from u. No asshole. I never said that. Like u don't say other girls are pretty! U've said that right in my face so many times.

Me: I'm quite sure about myself. In fact, all my future plans in life include you. How about u? You don't even have any plans at all. I have to plan for u. So who's the one who's not sure here? Do you even know why I'm trying to achieve? Why I study hard for exams? It's for u idiot. Because I know u'll never achieve anything, that's why I'm trying my best to achieve for us both. If I was unsure about you, I wouldn't try so hard. All I'd do is stay pretty and attract some wealthy guy who'll take care of me for the rest of my life. But then I'm sure about you, that's why I'm not going to do that. Instead I'm working my ass off so I can provide for our future family you'll probably have a hard time to feed by yourself. Seriously, telling me that you're not sure about me is the stupidest I've ever heard from u. And it's probably the most sincere. and truthful.

You see I'm sure about you. I'm sure about this relationship. What's the point of having a relationship when ur not sure about it. I'm not here to fling. I'm here for long term keeping. I'm here for forever. But I see ur not sure. So there you go. I have no time for this shit. It's pointless.