first translation
This is my first time translating a complete song. I posted it in Gendou and amazingly it got accepted and now the editing is locked. haha. So I must have done it right. Romanization is also by me. hehe SONO MAMA NO BOKU DE by Eufonius Konna ni gikochinai bokura Nani mo kizukanai furi o shiteta keredo Ano hi mita yasashii sono egao Kokoro no okude hikatteru Osanai hi no omoidetachi Yobiatta namae Ima mo oboetteru yo Sunao na mama futari te o tsunagi Onaji you ni arukitai Kaze o kitte hashitte yukou Zutto mae o mitte Motto hashiru,hashiru, hashiri tsudzukeru Kimi dake o sagashite Kaze o kitte hashitte yuku yo Touku naru mae ni Subete ushinatte mo Sono te ni fureru kyori made Ari no mama no boku o Hontou no boku o misetai kara こんなにぎこちない僕ら
何も気付かないフリをしてたけれど
あの日見た優しいその笑顔
心の奥で光ってる
幼い日の想い出達
呼び合った名前
今も覚えてるよ
素直なまま 二人手を繋ぎ
同じように歩きたい
風を切って走って行こう
ずっと前を見て
もっと走る、走る、走り続ける
君だけを探して
風を切って走って行くよ
遠くなる前に
全て失っても
その手に触れる距離まで
ありのままの僕を
本当の僕を見せたいから Just like this, we are awkward
We pretended to not notice anything, however
That day, I saw that kind smile
In your heart that is shining
Our childish memories of that day
We called each other’s names
I still remember them now!
Sometimes, meekly, we both hold hands
I want to walk with you similarly
I’m going to run, cutting through the wind
As I see straight ahead
I’ll run, run, continue running
Just to search for you
I’m going to run, cutting through the wind
Far ahead
I’ll give up everything
To feel your hand no matter the distance
Because I want to show my real self,
How I am.
phrases with groups
There were two friends A boy and a girl They wrote each other letters They wrote each other's lives One day they disagreed on something This thing patience and talking no longer could fix They stopped talking for days That turned into weeks That turned into months That turned into years They lived in different worlds each was an alien of They lost so much time that neither one could go back to Years after, they met again Different faces Different families They forgot the past Spoke once more But that closeness they once had was not the same as before *Bow*
On Many Things
First off... Yesterday, Sunday, Mother's day, my uncle's brother and his family invited us to go with them to Simala, where there's this famous shrine for the Virgin Mary. We went, and it was a long trip. It was lovely, going there. I got to see the coast, nice view, and it was sunny too. But when we got there, it just started raining. It's annoying. There shouldn't be rain during summer! So well, why did I go with them to the shrine? One, because I had nothing to do and I've never been there before and I just wanted to check it out. Besides, they brought a mercedez benz van with them, so why not. It was very spacious inside, no transpo hassle to worry about. So when we got there, it rained. It wasn't as beautiful as I expected. And I didn't like the people, because when we were forming a line to get to the statue of the Virgin Mary, some old women were complaining and arguing and stuff. Sigh, get over it, you're supposed to be inside "holy" grounds. And i was partly annoyed with the security guard who tossed me a sarong because i was "wearing shorts" (i wasn't wearing shorts, i was wearing short pedals, there's a difference). I just stared at him in disbelief. But on further thought, I definitely wouldn't mind covering my head with an orange bandana if I get to go inside a Hindu temple. So I just shrugged that off. But still, I do feel really distant to my religion right now. I mean, duh, what's with touching Virgin Mary's statue got to do with getting your wishes granted?? Or dipping your fingers in holy water found inside churches or chapels. Well, I'll just shrug that off too because I'm thinking, hell, even the Hindus bathe in the Ganges... (which is quite polluted too). But anyways, I think I'll have to agree with Sidhartha Gautama about learning to stop being dependent on gods, or any deity, and start working by yourself. Because enlightenment is just within yourself, it's waiting to be discovered. Well, I don't know about the part, but I certainly believe that one should learn to be independent, and stop relying on God for just about everything. Get your ass to work. Stop complaining, stop asking and then blaming God if he didn't grant your wish. You can hope all you want, just get your butt off that couch and start working! So when we got home I slept from 4pm to 9pm. And had a really looong dream. About Van de Graaff generators that beat like the heart whenever two people who love each other kiss in front of it. And about lots of people dying. And also about a ghost who I'm supposed to know who kept letting me see her. Etc... So today is my first day as a real trainee at NTW.
My realization
I had a dream like 2 weeks ago. It was a crazy dream. I was talking to my best friend in my apartment. I was told that she was getting married. At the age of 19!! It really annoyed me so much that I said, "Anyways, I don't really care about you. But how did your mom take it?" She said, " Well, when she found out, then she locked herself in the bathroom for a day. But she's accepted it now because she's already out." Then I asked, " So, who will be paying for the wedding?" She said, "Oh, that's all taken care of. I took out a loan at Pagcor (Is this even a loaning agency?=)" I said in irritation, " Ok, it's your life." I think that even if I said that I didn't really care, I think I did. But it was so annoying to so many levels because one, I didn't really approve and second, I couldn't do anything to prevent it. I've seen My Best Friend's Wedding and the "preventor" always loses. My professor in Sociology asked us what the best way was to deal with a daughter who marries a total junkie (guy with tattoos or drinks so much for example). He said that it was just to be happy for them because if you comment negatively, you're creating in-groups and out-groups. It means that it's like you're drawing a circle around yourself and marking your territory saying no one can encroach upon. But for me, I think that accepting is one of the most difficult things to do. If I was in that situation wherein I didn't like the guy, I wouldn't tell off my daughter but tell off the guy and try to change him into a better person. Maybe at least make him more friendly towards me. I just think I like changing people especially if I care about them so much. Honestly, if I were to be asked, I wouldn't want to have a daughter because I'd dislike her husband. But if I had a son, I'd dislike the wife....Thinking about it again, maybe guys are more friendly towards women so her hubby might work hard to get my approval first. I just hope that if I had a daughter she wouldn't grow up to be like my aunt who takes her significant other's side blindly. I just think that I'm protective of my women. When my cousin got a boyfriend, I didn't like him at first but after awhile he became friends with me. When my best friend got a boyfriend, I didn't like him at first but even now I don't like him. What's the difference? It's because my cousin's boyfriend befriended me while my best friend's bf didn't unless forced. Maybe it's like an outsider entering my territory. Are they here to invade or here to take in my culture? I always hated being a third-wheel but there was only one person I could stand being a third-wheel of. It was Girlie. She asked me to accompany her to SM together with her bf. Even if he barely talked to me, he just kept on smiling and I felt so comfortable. Now, she has a different boyfriend though, but because he jokes around with me so much I like him as well . My friends are going to Korea (staying there for a month) on July and drop by Japan for a few days. It's going to be so fun. I wish I could have gone too. Because they have to wait for their flight and stay in the airport for a night, they could hang out together. I wish I could do that with my friends too. I'm glad I still have single friends like Karina and Angela. Oh, I don't think they're still friends, too bad. I'm glad that Steph is already single. Wala na akong kaagaw. Now, where does Sherwin fit in? Well, he can come along the next trip. I just enjoy hanging out with girls. Does it make me a misandrist? haha. I wonder. I just now that I love my friends so much.
Why...
So why should I quit? Because from a reliable source I found out that it seems like the whole female population (including those who are not women but are still interested in men) in the company is eyeing him! So if I pursue this useless case, it will be me against everyone. Cary said, "can you not take a little competition?" but yrvs, that would be like, the whole ISMT building against me. AND, although everyone likes him, he doesn't seem interested at dating at all. So it's really useless. And I was right all along, that he's just like Jake. What a shame...
random thoughts part 2
I finally moved out. I think I'll miss Mankato...kind of. Yesterday, we partied and I got to taste the curry rice of my teacher with her karaage. Yum! Now, I am a fan of curry rice. We also watched a movie. Now, I can't remember the name. It was in Italian. It was about two Japanese lovers who lived their lied in Milan. When I watched the movie, it made me think if my love that Sherwin and I had for each other was really deep that we speak with our minds. But I guess, our love is different. I never told my friends that I was going to Winona. They'll be expecting me next year but I won't be around. I'm glad I got my stuff togehter. That was the first time that I really cleaned a lot. It was really spring cleaning. I mopped, swept,vacuumed, organized, packed, wiped, washed. I am tired now. oh well Now, I can learn Japanese.
Insignificance
I am writing today because I have no one to talk to... There's no one to have a meaningful conversation with, and that part of my life sucks right now. Thing is, I can't talk to my boyfriend because he has banned this topic already. So here goes... I hate how in some days, nothing significant ever happens. And I hate how I don't follow my own advice about flirting, or catching a guy's attention! Why? I'm starting to feel that he isn't really interested at all. He's just like Jake. I could totally accept it if he is going to go after me for sex, at least he is after me. But he's not after me in any way. I miss over-analyzing things with someone... I'm down. I'm not happy anymore.
random thoughts
I always wanted to be a good writer. Every time I write my thoughts down something just doesn't feel right. I become uncomfortable.Sometimes, I stop writing altogether. I used to keep a diary but then I stopped. I didn't like how and what I wrote. But writing helped. It relieved me of my stress and in a way, it made me practice writing. I realized that I'm drawn to drama. Maybe I'm addicted to sadness. I think I like crying because even if a normal person wouldn't normally cry, I would. I remember that whenever I see someone cry, I'd cry as well, especially if I understood their situation. Did I want attention? Was it empathy or was it because I was a drama queen? That I don't really know. When I was second year high school, I was in the piano room with a classmate talking about my plans in life. I had it all figured out. 1. I had to have a best friend for life. 2. I had to have a husband. 3. I had to finish college. 4. I had to have a great job to have lots of money. But people change.
Taking note of useless events
But are quite important to me... May 6, 2008 He sat beside me during lunch time. He tried to talk during the afternoon break. But we failed to pay attention. I rolled on the floor. May 7, 2008
I thought this day would end without any significant event happening. But he talked to me. All smiles. And even fixed my monitor. That was the first time he ever talked to me. I rolled on the floor.
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Steph made this...hehe
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